Teddi Mellencamp is opening up about battling stage 4 mind and lung most cancers.
The truth star turned emotional whereas detailing how the illness is affecting all elements of her life, together with motherhood.
“I remember one day in the hospital I was like, ‘I feel like today might be Dove’s birthday,’” Mellencamp, 43, who shares the 5-year-old together with Slate, 12, and Cruz, 10, with estranged husband Edwin Arroyave, advised Leisure Tonight on Thursday.
“And Edwin’s like, ‘It is. It’s her party today that you planned.’ I was like, ‘Can they please just let me out for today?’”
Mellencamp recounted how Arroyave’s response was “exactly what I needed him to say.”
“He’s like, ‘We’ll throw another one,’” she advised the outlet. “But my heart broke because I’m wondering, ‘Will she remember that I wasn’t there?’”
“I’m like, ‘I don’t think you understand the debilitating pain that I feel some days thinking about the fact that…my kids,’” Mellencamp shared by means of tears.
“That is extremely frightening. My kids are young,” the podcast host mentioned on the prospect of leaving her youngsters motherless.
Mellencamp additionally clarified her earlier feedback about how her dad, John Mellencamp, was planning her burial amid her most cancers battle.
“We were totally joking about the conversation,” the “RHOBH” alum defined. “I would say there’s definitely been hard conversations, the hardest being if things go wrong, who’s gonna be the person in charge of making those decisions? And those are things nobody wants to think about, but I do. And the way that I get through it is by laughing.”
Earlier this month, Mellencamp mentioned on her “Two Ts in a Pod” podcast that the rock star, 73, referred to as her “11 times in a row” to debate how he was already planning her burial of their household mausoleum in Indiana.
“Finally, I answer, I’m like, ‘I’m in the bath. Let me live a little,’” the equestrian detailed. “He goes, ‘I just want to make sure you’re going to be in our group family mausoleum.’”
Mellencamp admitted to her co-host Tamra Choose that she did conform to her dad’s request, jokingly including that she desires to have “hot girls never die” engraved on her tombstone.
Mellencamp additionally addressed how she is feeling nowadays to ET, stating, “I would say that today, I’m doing well. I’ve learned that it’s OK to be like, ‘I’m tired,’ and listen to my body.”
On April 10, Mellencamp revealed that her medical doctors had given her a 50/50 probability of beating most cancers.
“It’s one of my favorite things to ask is: ‘How long I got? What are my chances?’” she mentioned on “Nightline.” “And they often say ’50/50.’”
Mellencamp has introduced her Instagram followers alongside for the journey, sharing photos of her earlier than and after her analysis.
“What a difference 4 months makes,” Mellencamp wrote on the social media platform beneath pictures of herself. “Sometimes I am so focused on ‘being strong’ that I forget I am allowed to be sad, cry it out, and feel very alone. I love my kids, friends, and family so much and am forever grateful to them but dang today is one of those days.”
She added, “If you are having a day where you can’t wait for it to be bedtime so you can start over tomorrow leave me a ❤️. We are not alone. PS. I have watched Netflix and Hulu, what do I watch next?#overyoucancer.”
